The Happiest 2008

Here we are...its 12:38 am ... watched the ball drop...
Missed my brother's show...we are all sick.
My brother rocked it as usual!
Ty and I are on meds and Tim is suffering through as well.
Feeling yucky... but amazingly I feel so good. Heart good.
What I feel sickwise is is physical.. but my heart is happy and that is all that matters...
I have an amazing family, precious little boy that has blessed my life is so many ways...
a loving husband who I adore, my family and friends whom I appreciate and love more than they know.
Goals I have already and will accomplish. Life is gorgeous. Not even drunk...haha
Life is simply gorgeous!
I wish everyone much success, health and happiness in 2008!
God Bless...

Hello

Losing my voice. Its a yearly event.
My little Ty missed Christmas because he is sick too.
Santa still came, and there were toys everywhere...
Poor little lamb.

Got so much to do!
Ahhh!

Happy 2008

One more day

Almost Christmas Eve
NOT ready, AT ALL.
AND what to I do about it? Blog. haha
I made so many cookies!
Gingerbread, sugar, chocolate cookies, snowman hats (meringue...yummy melt in your mouthness)
I need to go through all the presents like crazy! I have no idea what I have for whom and what...well kinda, but not really.
We wrapped most of them, but still, feel incomplete.
I pulled a muscle in my back last night.
I have an appt at the gym tomorrow to take Bodycombat :)
Love that class, don't want to push it. It will be a long 2 days.
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My little guys is adorable and I am so excited to Christmas morning. I can hardly stand it. :)


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Happy Birthday to my Mom. :)
LOVE YOU!

Random...

Getting ready for the holidays and it is stressing me that it is 5 days away.
Sigh.
Disney was amazing! I will post the trip report here too!
Thanks for all the emails asking for it. Gives me warm fuzzies...
What are warm fuzzies anyway.

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I will also post some of my latest photography endeavors.
I have an absolutely fun shoot with Mother and Daughter last weekend.
The pictures are a surprise for the dad, so I will post later in the week.

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MY little guy just said...
"Mommy, you broken, I fix you"
Gathering his Bob the Builder tool set, he grabbed the pliers and squeezed my cheek.
Cute.

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New's YEARS! The Tower in BelAir...
Who want to go!
My brothers band Fiction20Down is playing. Tix are just $45 a person!
Food, beer, wine...amazing music!

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I'll leave you or now with this picture from Disney World/Epcot.


Cheers!

Cabin Fever...

Ty and I have MAJOR cabin fever.
He had been so sick, and not teething....
and EVERYWHERE I turn, there is a new sickness I hear about.
ITs just the season for it, so we are playing it safe...
Vitamins, rest, exercise and good food :) We leave for va-k in 11 days...
hold tight.
Christmas is coming faster than I can get it together...haha
Sigh...
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Side note...
Tyler...GOD LOVE HIM...
Looking at People Magazine online :)
A picture of Angelina Jolie...Ty points to it and says MOMMY!
haha
If thats how he sees me. haha

Still shuffling...haha

SO HERE WE ARE...here we are.
What does it all mean, and why and I so heady...so many thoughts.
SO MANY.
I feel stronger.
So I gained that.
LOVELINESS!
My little one is suffering...and it breaks me.
I want to switch places.
He will be well soon.
I have faith.
BUNCHS.

Play the cards your dealt...

Hey Hey...
So much soul searching.
So much realization of who people really are.
Even if they are close... who they are to you....
who knows.
Dissapointed.
Grateful for what I do have.

Everything Zen...

WOW...I have learned so much of myself the past couple of days...and I am so much stronger.
I have learned to appreciate myself.
My views, values...my own.
I meditate everyday..quiet with my very own mind, strengthening and getting to know myself.
Its nice.
I am pretty cool.
You are too.
I see good in everyone...even if they let me down, there is more good that bad.
The negativity I am faced with give me knowledge and growth to reach and stretch for goodness.
What is right...
Thou shalt not judge.
God be with you...wherever you find your faith or strength...go for it.
Feel it all...let it flow and breath.
You will feel so much better.
I am strong. I feel so good today.
Being the bigger person...the one who can rise about and not feed into the fear and hate.
God be with all of the lost...all of us still searching.
May you find peace.

Finding Strength...

WOW...What a day...
started great...storm cloud came in..changed my view...
feel lighter, grieving...but I feel strong...with pangs of weakness...but finding myself
and understanding this is part of my journey. I pray for them. I wish them clarity and peace.
Things got happier with long awaited VERY good news...so happy for my dear friends...
Then my hero and best friend, opened his wing and held me tight (I LOVE YOU)...with my little angel bringing me smiles.
So this day...forever changed my life, was 90% beautiful....shot, as lucky and blessed as I am...make that 99%.

Ty is definitely a gift from God...how honored and blessed I am to be his Mom.

and then...

I am toughing it..haha
Had surgery yesterday on my leg. Percocets are making me ill. YUK!
I just tried my old hydrocodone... that seems to be helping. I think I am gonna tough it and stick to the tylenol. haha
I have never been the pain meds type of chick. haha
Tyler kissed my legs and said "All better mommy"
I love him so much.
He has a runny nose. Poor thing.
I have an audition on Tues with Lydia to teach a bodyjam track.
Nervous and not nervous...make sense?
Training will be tough...haha
Maybe I should be nervous about that.
SIgh.

mix master misery...kinda

Tired...
once again...
sigh...
Went to the Zoo again today.
LOVELY weather.
Had a lot of ups and downs throughout.
I get let down.
It happens. What can you do.
Gonna take another class.
Not sure what one yet.
71 days
Had a physical today.
I am healthy.
Surgery in less than 2 weeks
Relief.
I will miss working out.
only 7 days.
I love this crisp air.
Funny, when it is winter for a while, you crave the warmth...
now that summer is nearly over...i am looking forward to apples, pumpkins, hayrides...
costumes, cows, the changing leaves.
I love having all these gorgeous seasons.
I would love to live in Fla..but I would miss this mixture of life.
I love taking Tyler all of these different places...showing him new things.
Such a little smartie pants.
Today....
jumped from one couch the other...when he landed yelled...SUPER HERO!
So cute.
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mixed thoughts.
a lot of sunshine...a couple dark clouds.
Sigh...

crazy weekend

The best thing! My brother's show. Fiction 20 Down. INCREDIBLE!
i am blown away.
Completely impressed...he is destined for more. I am so proud of him.
Next show, friday in Delaware..."Delaware, we're in Delaware..."
Success awaits you!
Had a shoot today with a beautiful family. There was so much love between them.
I love that.
I am so exhausted. Going to bed...zzzzz
More tomorrow...

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Stay away from drugs.
It will steal your soul, and you are blessed with talent and then some.
Don't throw it away.
Your hero no longer exists in human form...and drugs were a huge part of that loss.
Remember? Let that hero be the hero for the positive things they did...ahem...the talent...
Don't let a girl rob you of your self esteem. She reacts to the mirror of
how she sees herself. The faults she sees are what she hates in herself.
She has sold most of her soul. She tries to save it, but masks herself in words of hate, blame and tattoos.
I read how she tears your down. Shes a loser.
We have had many talks...fortunately, you are deep, and strong...
it would take a lot to melt that away...but you are heading there and it
is frightening.
The man of sound informed me of the beyond talent he sees..completion is the light you need to feel.
We have talked, you see it too...don't let her brainwash you.
Why are your drawn to such losers?
Strive to be more...we all love you, we all hold you, and all want to
see you healthy again.
Don't give up on yourself.

Tired

Ty had a rough morning...teething (2 yr molars) maybe...we had an early nap.
I did some work.
Prepared Dinner.
Took Ty to the park...
Target...
Home...
Made dinner...
Ty had tummy troubles...
Gym...
Computer.
I am tired.
Celebrity Rap Superstar is on...damn.
Gotta go dry my hair...bed.

I know you wanted to know.
haha

Our voting lines will be open at the end of the show...

A very nice day...
Tyler had his first Terrific Tots and he loved it! Hung with his buds Gus and Eleni...Conner is on vacation.
Then we all went to ChikFilA...
My mommy pals too...Kat and Irene. (Cath is on vacation)
Irene is the most thoughtful person. She goes out of her way to talk to everyone. There is one little old lady that cleans the tables and the Chik...and Irene has befriended her. She remembered it was this lady's birthday...bought her a card and gave her a little money. This woman was so touched..she started crying, I started crying...Irene filled up. It was so sweet. She just does these random acts of kindness and it is nice to witness it. She is the kind of person that inspires you to be a better person.

2nd day down...atkins stylie...I am just doing induction, then going to the healthy well balanced thing.
6th day without soda! I love the bubbles and tingle...sigh.. water and tea for me!
I feel a lot better too...more clear headed. Is that all in my head...haha

The Hills has me all worked up. haha
Heidi is a dumbass.
A giant ass foot needs to step on Spencer and squash his big ass head.
Audrina...adorable, but little out there...
LC...cocky..no? I like it though. She is getting strong.
Jason...clean up. How long will that last?
Lo and Whitney...adore them
Sad that I am so involved. Sigh...

toodalooo!
nite

Sunshine Rewards

So I found this through a message board.
Once you get 20.00 you get a gift card...or you can earn more.
Its pretty cool. This girl on the message board is on her 3 disney gift card.
Check it out.
I am up to 3.31
What the heck, right?

Ok, so here I am...

I have a couple blogs, my son's, vacation trip reports...and a live journal, which I barely update. So, why another? I like this blogland-a-ma-gig... So I thought my thoughts would be better thought out here. Here I will venture into crazy things that are in my head, place, things...whatever I want. If you read it, don't be afraid...haha

Here goes...
Just got back from NC..Duck-Corolla..Kill Devil Hills.. I went with my Mom and Aunt as we headed down for a wedding. The wedding was for my sister in law's sister. We are a pretty tight family, but I was honored to be invited. Tim and Ty were too, but Tim had to work, so he worked from home, and hung with Tyler for 4 days. 4 days I was gone. Being away from my baby was horrible. I missed him so much. I cried everyday. 4 days! Thats it...my heart goes out to anyone who has to share custody, or has to leave the family to go to war, sickness, etc... It is horrible, and I barely made it through 4 days. I am so grateful to be able to be with Tyler everyday. I am a lucky Mom. So back to the trip.
It was beautiful.
When we got there, we had lunch with my brother and sis in law...I had a red stripe. YUM.
Went to the house bro and sil were staying with the family...gorgeous!
The house the family rented...groom and bride side stayed in the same house...which was beautiful in itself. What a way to make families come together...and they all still love each other!
So we go to our hotel...Quality Inn, which was so not quality. More like NASTY INN. Stained floor, brown blanket as a comforter, so much black mold in the shower...ewww And get this $165 a night! SO...it was sucky. It was an adventure, till we found out there was a $99 special walk in rate. A-holeeeoooos! My Mom is so ticked off. She is cute when she gets all feisty.
We went to the rehersal dinner. It was real nice.
Next day, my Aunt, Mom and I explored the area.
I climbed the Kill Devil Dunes.
We went to the Lost Colony.
I took a lot of pictures.
We went to the outlets and I didn't purchase 1 thing!
haha
We went to 5 guys, burgers and fries. YUM.
We went back and I went on the beach by myself for an hour or so. It was lovely.
Now, with my 2 year old, days on the beach are spent being active and making sand castles, looking for sand crabs and seashells, walking down the beach... Just to lay there, or jump through the waves without worry was a nice change...but I so badly wanted my son and hubby with me too. The silence with myself was real nice though. It was like my meditations came to life. It was nice. I can't wait to take Ty and Tim there ;)
We went to the wedding.
The wedding planner was interesting. I took lots of pictures.
I broke out my new D200...I am more confident with my D50...
It was a beautiful sunset wedding. The bride looked stunning...the bride and groom cried and it was so sweet.
The reception was yummy with crab cakes and goodness...and YUMMMMM Sangria, that was the best I ever had.
The photographer left early, so I grabbed my camera and took some more pictures.
Fun times.
I stayed the night at the huge house and was up till 5:30 and get this...sober! haha My brother and I had a nice conversation, and I was actually drunk with laughter, because he was so hilarious.
My SIL took me back to the slum hotel and that was sweet of her to do that...cause I know she was exhausted.
We packed, went on the beach again...I took more pictures ;)
We packed up the car.
Left my aunts car mat behind...gotta replace that.
Headed home....yah! I miss my boys.
We stopped at Golden Coral...interesting people. I think we were in Waldorf, MD... Let's just say, the entertainment was free.
We got home...hubby and son sitting on the step outside, waiting for me...I cried.
Get out of the car...Ty runs to me... "Moooommmmyyyy!!!!" The most beautiful sound.
Happy to be home. I had a nice time, but there is no place like home.
Home is definitely where the heart is.

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Starting my diet...such a dirty word...today.
Induction...atkins style for 2 weeks...then the healthy stuff.
Did I mention...going to Disney World in...lets see...how many days...1,2, 4, 7 ....oh...77 days, 15 hours, 43 min and 33 seconds. Think I can drop 20 by then?
Hells yeah!
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Tomorrow, Ty's first Terrific Tots day!